THE “INSIDE” STORY

What arose from a general conversation of diverse experiences of introspecting why who did what and till what extent...there were interesting reactions which actually co realte to how we reassure ourselves and justify our actions to ourselves to make it all so cool and easy in the “sex”ual realm...no matter how hard we try to portray ourselves as the uber chic and broad minded thinking our minds are still ruled by the question on purity and pollution....the case of virginity??!!..
Is the degree of intimacy so strong a factor that makes sex so hush a thing and a kiss not so personal as the former...coz maybe it’s the closest you can get to person physically...funny enough when people are so comfortable to have oral sex with each other they often don’t have the traditional sex as a taboo and not to be done before marriage...why the guilt then which is stated as one doesn’t want to be unfaithful to whoever they settle for, you are obvioulsy not cheating or double dating someone....in all probabilities sex has the dramatic effect of fluctuating between spot light and lime light..the societal hype..all the credentials of being sacred and pure or simply an act of procreation and nothing to do with the art of love making...or the fact that you want it to be special, what guarantee that the person you are doing it with is the best for you cause obviously you are with a person when you think that a person is worth you and for obvious reasons it can change with time and circumstances...if deduced, it’s merely a process which starts with a kiss where you extensively and exclusively use your tongue and ends with sex where you use your respective reproductive equipment for pleasure and procreation...so if biologically speaking what’s the big deal...
It doesn’t boil down to random sleeping around and indulging in universal whoreness and going all the way with each and every person you date but merely not blowing sex out of proportion to which we superficially despise and secretly we all have been there and done that...let sex too have a breath of fresh air..i personally feel that sex stemming with all it’s passion and fire and love ultimately turns into a horny act and why wouldn’t it...that is one of it’s objectives and is a prime physiological need and that’s the way it’s satiated...and a kiss and a hug is yet more personal and tender and loving cause that’s where the turn on begins and doesn’t end...
(this all comparison arose from an incident i was told of where the guy felt guilty of having sex but not going all the way down to third base...who is thinking like a woman now??..heheheh...:)

MY BEST CLOTHES....

When you break up or a long prolonged fight with someone close to you comes to an end (you did know how it would eventually end, but the smart ass inside you never believed that and hence the shock....how could that?...) or you are let down by a very close friend of yours (that dismal and pain is worse than menstrual cramps..) it’s like suddenly the best clothes of your wardrobe have gone missing and you don’t know how to replace them and from where will you get the same pieces or whether you will get your size or not...and post this eventful moment which you give grave importance at that very second (yes...after some while you won’t give a damn about it and probably be at peace with yourself and be busy smoking in the alley or drinking beer or sitting at the edge of a pavement and sip on coffee and see the traffic and the night lights..yes i do that very often...) you would end up in a “shopping spree” that is when you go “hunting” for someone potentially worth you and try to find the same little black dress that once made you look pretty. Your impulsiveness will make everything look great and you will feel all optimistic and bright about putting back your life only to realize a little later that either you have outgrown your size or you have lost some pounds or the fabric doesn’t suit you or a part of the stitching just gave away and you end up “dumping” the garment...and if you don’t go the shopping spree way you become one of those people who have a live cautionary ticker on their tongue all time and go on alerting people about the implications of disappointment of your lost “best clothes” and maybe never go for your special best clothes again...in both the instances of impulse and judgement you are no more than a stranger to yourself and  clueless beyond anything you have been...so best is to try newer trends and put back your best wardrobe with a better uber coolness and sense and never go shopping with the intention of shopping specifics cause it's like a rule or a law of nature that if you go with an intended pre decided list of shopping in your head you never get what you want....